Mid-life exisential dread.

[Vulture]

Anyone else experience or are experiencing this?  I've had realizations throughout the years that "one day, it will end" and it's never freaked me out as much as it does now.

Perhaps because I was younger, and had "more time".  All I can think now is "I have 30 years left" (I'm mid 40's).  I was never scared of dying, viewing it as a new beginning rather than the end.

All this hit me last night like a Mac truck.  No real reason why, I have no idea why it came.



Feel free to share whatever you'd care to share. 

[quintessentone]

For me the acceptance of one's death was always instilled in me by my mother who suffered horrors during WWII as a child, just so you have an idea of where her mindset is coming.

Now at 70 yrs. and having lived a life of self-exploration and questioning and researching others' ideas of the fabric of our reality, I have come to the realization that nobody knows what this reality is nor what awaits us after death. So, I will keep my mind open to both scenarios when it comes to after death reality. 

Find out what the foundation of your fear really is...is it because you are not living your life fully or that certain something is still missing? Regrets?

I have no regrets because through it all I had the freedom of choice depending on the situation/reality at that time. I take accountability for it all.

Although lately I do dream of entering death's realm in different forms, so I suppose that is my subconscious preparing me for the unknown. Is it scary? ... you bet, but I still face it head on.

[Vulture]

For some reason, I can't like your post. (No like button.)

There is a piece of the puzzle I'm still putting into place.  It's a huge piece, and perhaps that is adding urgency as I can't "settle down" or even "live" without that piece in place.

These feelings literally just came.  No build up, just bam! there it was. 

[quintessentone]

For some reason, I can't like your post. (No like button.)

There is a piece of the puzzle I'm still putting into place.  It's a huge piece, and perhaps that is adding urgency as I can't "settle down" or even "live" without that piece in place.

These feelings literally just came.  No build up, just bam! there it was. 

Yes, the realization that death comes for us all.

I suppose we all have to put the puzzle pieces together as best we can, with what we are given and how we react with each new puzzle piece.

Good luck putting your puzzle together in such a way that you can accept.

[Vulture]

Yes, the realization that death comes for us all.

I've always known it was a reality, and that one day it'd be my turn.  And it never really phased me up until the other day.  I think because I noticed time felt like it was going exceptionally faster.  So 30 years will feel like 10 and I'll be sitting there, much like I'm sitting here now wondering "where did the time go?".

[Cottage Demon]

Myself i am not particularly worried about death. I have not lived a interesting or 'exciting' life; no family or friends and have never had any interests in marriage or dating. I suppose that at the age of 55 (That's my age) one should have already done this or that -whatever that might be- but I really am not concerned.

My time could end tomorrow or 20 years from now and it really doesn't matter to me.

[KTemplar]

You still have so much time.

I will say though, please savor every beautiful moment because it flies by fast.


I am 60, I never thought I’d make it to 50 honestly, and it’s a miracle of God that I am still here.

I work with mainly 20 year olds, one other 60 yr old.  My coworkers thought I was 40, and ironically I can relate to them more than I could the old boomer bitches from my last job.  I have to say Gen Z gives me hope.  I do feel bad for the 30 and 40 yr olds though who have to work endlessly to prob never afford to buy a home or even a car for some of them.

I see so many homeless people now wondering around that I am just so grateful to have a place with a shower, and a bed.  So many people in the world do not have these things.

Take one day at a time when overthinking.  Plan, yes, for you’re most comfortable outcome of course, and take nothing for granted.  Make some good memories.

Peace Youngblood!

[ANNEE]

I have no issue with dying. I’m 80 years old. 

I do not believe in a God - judgment - Hell - etc. 

I do believe we are a consciousness with self examination   Did I contribute positive energy to evolving consciousness?

It’s easy to say “stay in the light” to someone who understands that. Explaining it that it makes sense to someone who looks at you like you lost your mind  — not so easy. 

How I physically die is a separate question. I’m not fond of pain and major discomfort. 

I think “Right to Die” should be made easier to obtain.

[quintessentone]

I've always known it was a reality, and that one day it'd be my turn.  And it never really phased me up until the other day.  I think because I noticed time felt like it was going exceptionally faster.  So 30 years will feel like 10 and I'll be sitting there, much like I'm sitting here now wondering "where did the time go?".

I swear as I get older time does indeed speed up, just saying. So it 'feelz' like we have less time to get ourselves in some sort of state of acceptance of our ultimate fate.

Perhaps putting that thought aside (in the back of the mind), escalating the fear or panic because of the impression that there really is no time left, or merging the realization with one's daily thought priorities needs to happen.

For me, there is not the option of denial or just putting it out of my mind, it is always there forcing self-exploration and self-judgement of this lived life so far.

[quintessentone]

I have no issue with dying. I’m 80 years old. 

I do not believe in a God - judgment - Hell - etc. 

I do believe we are a consciousness with self examination   Did I contribute positive energy to evolving consciousness?

It’s easy to say “stay in the light” to someone who understands that. Explaining it that it makes sense to someone who looks at you like you lost your mind  — not so easy. 

How I physically die is a separate question. I’m not fond of pain and major discomfort. 

I think “Right to Die” should be made easier to obtain.

You hit the nail on the head with that question "Did I contribute positive energy to evolving consciousness?" If we can honestly judge our deeds and behaviours (with a grain of mercy because of our human conditions) and feel genuinely sorry if we failed others and ourselves, isn't that all in the evolvement of consciousness...the forever evolvement, learning and correcting?