DID, ASPD, Schizophrenia

[Ray1990]

Yeah that's why I love decarbing my own privately grown cannabis, then press them into caps.  At a good 27% I can manage to get .7-.8 in each cap making a total near 200mg, it ends up losing some weight and gaining strength in the decarbing process as the moisture and some lighter elements are converted, but I've been told this is the highest CBD product I'll ever find, that's still technically natural.  I have no idea where the CBD ends up.  ?

Trouble happens after two weeks when my tolerance goes from one cap being too much at the beginning to needing three or four just to take the edge off.  It's not manageable in a continuous medical way without a lab and technician and a good doctor in the right field of study.    So impossible...

I'll admit I don't know much about the chemistry behind cannabinoids and how they convert. From what I gather the same precursor compounds convert in different ways to produce THC, CBD, CBG etc.

From experience high THC strains tend to lack CBD/CBG with the ratio often being 20/1 THC to CBD. There's system of flower types based on their cannabinoid content :
Type1 THC predominant
Type 2 balanced 1/1 mix e.g. 10% THC 10% CBD
Type 3 CBD predominant, little to no THC
Type 4 CBG predominant

It's not a system I've ever used but it's getting common hearing people mention flower types. It's probably easier just getting CBD isolate and using it as a supplement if you ever felt inclined.

I've used weed most of my life and CBD definitely makes a difference with me. We're all different though, it will take the edge off when you've had a tolerance break... Chewing black peppercorns does wonders for taking the edge off when the high's a bit much too, the caryophyllene (a terpene) mellows out the high.

[Nerb]

...Chewing black peppercorns does wonders for taking the edge off when the high's a bit much too, the caryophyllene (a terpene) mellows out the high.

Now THAT'S a good one to try next time I am crawling on the floor focusing on staying alive.

Thanks, from a regular enjoyer of Mother Nature.

[pianopraze]

Trauma splits the mind creating dissociative states.
did can be an extreme example

mk ultra subproject 136

[Sirius]

Trauma splits the mind creating dissociative states.
did can be an extreme example

mk ultra subproject 136

You my friend are stuck looking down a tunnel of despair and you just need to turn around, but you won't because your hypnotized by the light coming at you and the shadow behind it.

@85303 Do a ritual for Sopdet/Isis, ask for healing and guidance. Chaos at the center. This may have some answers, or give a direction https://denyignorance.com/Thread-Where-d...-come-from

You know how to do it. https://denyignorance.com/Thread-How-to-...Meditation

[UltraBudgie]

Guess we're doing pictures.

[midicon]

Edited to remove my post...not yours Ultra! Somehow got stuck in this box lol.

[Sirius]

I suppose a different tale could be told. One where innocence is lost at 5, where the body develops an automatic response to physical touch of revulsion.  What it's like watching a loved one morph into a literal demon on top of you during sex and so you close your eyes.  How there is no cure for suffering and only and end to it.

Is this more to your liking?

[KTemplar]

I was once stalked by a coworker who was diagnosed with schizophrenia. It was such a terrible experience. I begged corporate to move me to a different location, and after a year they did.

I later learned this same lady harassed other employees; it got so bad she was given a desk far away from everyone else. I guess it’s almost impossible to let someone with a disability go. At least it was 35 years ago.

She really couldn’t help herself I believe.

I have also known others who lied to psychiatrists about seeing dragons in the kitchen to get disability.

I also felt bad for my stalker because she seemed to have no one.

[Sirius]

That mk ultra post pushed me over the edge yesterday, it was the elctoroshock bit. The pain is unbearable, I wanted to die yesterday.

@85303 I don't know the full extent of your situation, but I know how bad it can get. The amount of hate I have is unreal ot the point where I start seeing dragons.  You have to remember that what you are going through spirals out to many people and it get's really ugly and worse.

The only thing I can do is tell you stories about watching minds shatter. Many late night ambulance calls, seizures and watching a loved one go through electroshock therapy. It's one thing watching a horror movie like the exorcists and the weird contortions and another watching people have it in real life. The are many ways to induce seizures, drug overdoses has the same effects and have seen those also.

It's not something you can deal with alone and it never ends.  The general public just think "crazy" people and "schizophrenia", it's impossible for them to understand minds shatter through trauma and the demons becomes very real. The world shatters with the mind and becomes hell.

What happens when your demons posses you? Will you perpetuate the evil and the corruption? Dissociation turns into possession and then what? What will happen to the people around you?

[Sirius]

Homework is the purpose of the thread. Information gathering before moving forward in any direction

You won't have the full story unless you where directly involved and are unlikely to get it. The stuff I talked about above is parallel events, as in the person I mentioned, it's not even the same story, I just saw it all to.  Something darker could have been moving around between doors and houses for years. You will find predators, it's only going to get worse.

I have been through the full system.

You need help, I don't know what else to tell you.