(04-06-2025, 04:09 AM)Sirius Wrote: Trigger warning, read this thread https://denyignorance.com/Thread-Monroe-...rchive-org
Something coming out if it may help, I didn't post everything there, you will have to look at other threads and posts I made.
Why? Whatever you or your friend is going through I have probably posted about it and you can look at peoples reactions or the lack of it.
You have to chose what you want to do.
I tried to word it like I was talking about a friend and my words came out pretty clear I was talking about myself. Stigma of DID apparently.
Yeah surprisingly this is closer to what I was hoping for. I still hope medical science can someday hope to see, understand and help these sorts of problems people have. Hope, but doubt. It's like everything else of meaning and consequence in the universe, the more you understand, the closer you look the more ambiguous and dispersed everything becomes
My only concern is that rabbit hole idea being mentioned. I'm not sure if it's worth the risk. Sorcerer's apprentice but the mage is my compartmentalized inner demon and his tools are not so benign.
The things mentioned as experiences during binurial sessions are something I already experience without effort. It's confusing to try to determine if something is a hallucinations or something else. If I fixate I lose focus on reality. The lines between here, there and inside my head blur and I have to snap myself out of it as fast as possible
My meditation is short fast and usually used to make my body sleep because it lost that ability early.
Compartmentalize everything (put in box)
Clear field (same thing as before but for the light things my eyes make when I close them)
Focus all attention to third eye, usually I lose focus on my body at this point.
New lights like the ones in step 2 but they have shapes and move together seemingly with purpose
Usually at this point I'll get full visual hallucinations of people and places. Random. I don't know most of them and haven't been to most of the places I've seen. The images are gone instantly but I can see every detail
If I'm lucky at this point I wake up rested.
I sometimes have dreams that feel like months, even years once.
So there is some concern but I'm sure it's nothing I can't survive.
As for professional help, there's none.
Machines, doctors, AI, everything can't interpret or track any of this because it's unique to each person during their unique development and simply isn't possible with the methods available today. Therapy is like rehab, a complete waste for someone who actively wants to get better. Rehab/therapy never saved a single person who didn't want it. I'm not above asking for help, I'm just not going to hand over my family's livelihood to do so.
