Your Monicker - How Did You Come Up With It?

[IdeomotorPrisoner]

We're suicidal swans, silence in throats we creep.
You'll know us by our shaky ground
When ideas rise from the deep

Dolphins have more dignity.

It's a reference song to the metalcore song Ideomotor by The Agonist on the album "Prisoners." Alissa White-Gluz (Von Frankenstein) is my Taylor Swift. With much more complex and intelligent lyrics, albeit death growled at times. She does amazing collaborations where she sings too.. Very much a fan-based moniker.

The idea being we are prisoners of our own ideomotor tendencies. We're programmed. Our free will exists on a shaky foundation of the illusion we think freely. Really our tendencies are imprinted by the events and ideas that built our worldview and led to that point.

Related to the "Ideomotor reflex" with Oujia boards, where the unsaid most likely answer is spelled out by the unconscious minds of the participants.

I am an "ideomotor prisoner" to what my unconscious spells out for me. With the goal of it all being to try to not be that.