Horrendous spiritual experience lasting 7 weeks

[Elijah1771]

Hi folks,

This is my first thread on Deny Ignorance; I used to be a member on ATS, and didn't realise that Deny Ignorance had been created in the wake of the loss of our beloved ATS, hence it's been a long while since I was involved with this community - really glad that there is now a place where we can continue to express ourselves in the manner we became familiar with through use of ATS back in the day.

And so, on to the experience which has dominated my recent spiritual life, which was extremely powerful, frightening & inexplicable in many ways.  Essentially I am a Christian believer, with 20 years of experience in the Faith, and everything in life seemed to be ticking along nicely, I would have regular spiritual experiences including dreams & visions, words of knowledge & prophecy, etc.  Naturally therefore you will see that I believe firmly in the spiritual gifts outlined by Paul in the New Testament, and my faith is living & active, rooted in the Word of God.

In May this year, I was suddenly overwhelmed with a dark & terrible spiritual experience, which I have described to one counsellor as 'the dark night of the soul'.  Basically, one night I was suddenly overwhelmed with severe demonic nightmares, involving the appearance of demons in deceptive & terrifying visions of the night.  I would see continuing apparitions of demonic entities appearing in my room at night over the next several weeks, I would have experiences of severe sleep paralysis, night terrors, and even experiences of torture in my nightmares which produced real, terrible physical pain, being unable to wake myself up despite this pain.  This unfolded over a period of around seven weeks, every single night I would experience these horrors, and it seemed there was no relief.  My whole church was praying for me by the end, as I revealed to my pastor what was happening, seeking prayer support on a regular basis, but with seemingly little relief.  I was quoting scripture, I was praying in the Spirit, I was holding onto my faith by a thread, at the end of it.  The last terrible experience involved waking up in a state of sleep paralysis, seeing a terrifying form of a demon sitting on my chest in full technicolor reality, which mocked me & identified itself as 'Lucifer', taking the form of my youngest son manipulated to appear demonic - it was horrifying.  It mocked me & threatened my family, only disappearing as I eventually broke out of the sleep paralysis & called on the name of Jesus.  

Finally, after I took communion before sleeping at the direction of my pastor, the experiences stopped.  I began to have peaceful dreams, and in one dream straight after the experiences stopped an angel appeared to me, smiling & telling me I was "all the way through" the terrifying demonic experience.  In one of my dreams shortly thereafter I was shown that the experience had been a sort of test, something required before the next stage of my spiritual growth could manifest, and that there had been no guarantee concerning how the situation would pan out, spiritually speaking.  I assume I might have lost my faith, if it had gone the wrong way - but thankfully God enabled me to keep holding on, despite the horrors of each night over that seven week period, in which there was no relief.  I was shown that the experience had been akin to picking up a cobra by the tail, it could have turned & bitten me with its toxic venom, but thankfully that didn't happen.  I began to have broad, vivid, expansive spiritual dreams, filled with peace & visions of pure faith.  Since that time I have had occasional nightmares, but nothing like that terrifying seven week period.  

Currently, I am seeking deliverance ministry to ensure I picked up no nefarious spirits afflicting my soul during that period, and counselling with a Christian counsellor in a local church.  I am still attending church & seeking answers to what occurred, I will update this thread with any information that comes up.  When I was prayed for recently, the woman got two words of knowledge - that God would give me "a new name", and that I would "move mountains" in the next stage of my spiritual journey with the Lord's help.

Thanks for reading - please share any insights you may have regarding this terrible experience, I would appreciate any feedback.

Kind Regards,


Elijah1771.

[UltraBudgie]

You are describing an experience that shares many notes with what I know and what others have experienced. You will find quite a few here—not all—who understand. Thank you for sharing this, and welcome.

From intuition, I will say that you're going to find the "move mountains" bit to be not at all what you expected. Wondrous, but also another mountain to climb on your journey of faith. Be well.

Have some cake:

[Sirius]

Nice...erm uhm..I mean sorry to hear about your troubles. 

Can you remember what triggered or how it all started? Are you reliving any past memories? There was most likely a series of events that set everything in motion.

Are you sure this is correct " one night I was suddenly overwhelmed".. you don't have to share anything..

[Kwaka]

Toughen up princess. This world has been a crazy place for a lone time. Thankfully most people are decent most of the time, would not of made it this far otherwise. 

There is a messed up element in the will to survive, some have pushed the boundaries hard. To be on a site like this, some of those darker forces do emerge from time to time. Had a few 'dark nights of the soul' on this boat.

Taken by tears, shattered in what humanity really means, left in deep, dark pits of hell... Thinking that maybe Jesus was onto something for a better way?

I know I cannot fix it all, not my job. What I can do is look after my own back yard. Learn from these mistake. Grow from this pain. God will sort it out one way or another. Do the best we can in our part of the world to help that happen in a better way.

[Sirius]

Thanks for reading - please share any insights you may have regarding this terrible experience, I would appreciate any feedback.

Kind Regards,


Elijah1771.

There is a fire that burns inside you that you need to watch out for. Try and move towards splendor and glory. You will have a crisis of faith if you look at history.

and get bloodwork done, get a checkup, go to a GP

[Moon68]

Tribulations are often used to bolster the faith of the pious.

It's how He has worked us regularly throughout biblical history.

[KKLoco]

Those entities terrorizing you are very real. They are trying to induce an emotional response. More particularly, one of fear. I know this may sound difficult but, the best thing you can do is give it no emotional response - have no fear. If you want to take it a step further, embrace what's happening when they are doing it and laugh about it. This response really pisses them off, as they are not netting the desired result of your paralyzing fear. We are constantly terrorized in our sleep state. The only difference is the extent of the attention they focus on each one of us individually.

[Maxmars]

I know that many characterize your sensations as an anxiety attack... a spurious confluence of hormonal misfires, leading to a wash of brain chemistry changes mimicking "fight or flight" and particularly disorienting when there appears to be nothing to run "from."

Others would suggest that such a state is deliberately, not incidentally, induced by a spirit, or entity... a reaction to perceptions you can't localize... but a distinct threat...

I have also heard that we are so 'programmatically fixed' that an overlap of emotions, or conflicting sentiments can trigger such a state... even buried in the sub-conscious.

Frankly I don't know what it is...

But it is not alien to me... that sudden feeling... the strange blast of apprehension which is usually focused, but alarmingly somehow isn't.  When it interrupts sleep it is a metaphorical visit to hell.

Solace is as much yours to take, as it is to be given...
We can only offer it... may you find your peace
It's out there... waiting... it always is.

(I know someone who won't be consoled...  don't go there.)

[Swada]

The experiences you expressed are similar to experiences saints of church have experienced. Which are sometimes referred to as "victim souls" here  

The key you mentioned a few times is seven.  The seven devils are empowered by your desiring/fearing mind.  When you overcome the seven deadly sins (all egotistical desires/fears) the seven devils turn into the seven angels. 

This transformation should also be accompanied by sounds of the holy ghost (great wind, trumpets etc of the holy ghost). Also called Anahata nada in Hinduism.  They are signs that the mind is being cleansed. In preparation of greater conciousness of the Fathers will.

A great accomplishment if you suceed. My best wishes to you.

[quintessentone]

Hi folks,

This is my first thread on Deny Ignorance; I used to be a member on ATS, and didn't realise that Deny Ignorance had been created in the wake of the loss of our beloved ATS, hence it's been a long while since I was involved with this community - really glad that there is now a place where we can continue to express ourselves in the manner we became familiar with through use of ATS back in the day.

And so, on to the experience which has dominated my recent spiritual life, which was extremely powerful, frightening & inexplicable in many ways.  Essentially I am a Christian believer, with 20 years of experience in the Faith, and everything in life seemed to be ticking along nicely, I would have regular spiritual experiences including dreams & visions, words of knowledge & prophecy, etc.  Naturally therefore you will see that I believe firmly in the spiritual gifts outlined by Paul in the New Testament, and my faith is living & active, rooted in the Word of God.

In May this year, I was suddenly overwhelmed with a dark & terrible spiritual experience, which I have described to one counsellor as 'the dark night of the soul'.  Basically, one night I was suddenly overwhelmed with severe demonic nightmares, involving the appearance of demons in deceptive & terrifying visions of the night.  I would see continuing apparitions of demonic entities appearing in my room at night over the next several weeks, I would have experiences of severe sleep paralysis, night terrors, and even experiences of torture in my nightmares which produced real, terrible physical pain, being unable to wake myself up despite this pain.  This unfolded over a period of around seven weeks, every single night I would experience these horrors, and it seemed there was no relief.  My whole church was praying for me by the end, as I revealed to my pastor what was happening, seeking prayer support on a regular basis, but with seemingly little relief.  I was quoting scripture, I was praying in the Spirit, I was holding onto my faith by a thread, at the end of it.  The last terrible experience involved waking up in a state of sleep paralysis, seeing a terrifying form of a demon sitting on my chest in full technicolor reality, which mocked me & identified itself as 'Lucifer', taking the form of my youngest son manipulated to appear demonic - it was horrifying.  It mocked me & threatened my family, only disappearing as I eventually broke out of the sleep paralysis & called on the name of Jesus.  

Finally, after I took communion before sleeping at the direction of my pastor, the experiences stopped.  I began to have peaceful dreams, and in one dream straight after the experiences stopped an angel appeared to me, smiling & telling me I was "all the way through" the terrifying demonic experience.  In one of my dreams shortly thereafter I was shown that the experience had been a sort of test, something required before the next stage of my spiritual growth could manifest, and that there had been no guarantee concerning how the situation would pan out, spiritually speaking.  I assume I might have lost my faith, if it had gone the wrong way - but thankfully God enabled me to keep holding on, despite the horrors of each night over that seven week period, in which there was no relief.  I was shown that the experience had been akin to picking up a cobra by the tail, it could have turned & bitten me with its toxic venom, but thankfully that didn't happen.  I began to have broad, vivid, expansive spiritual dreams, filled with peace & visions of pure faith.  Since that time I have had occasional nightmares, but nothing like that terrifying seven week period.  

Currently, I am seeking deliverance ministry to ensure I picked up no nefarious spirits afflicting my soul during that period, and counselling with a Christian counsellor in a local church.  I am still attending church & seeking answers to what occurred, I will update this thread with any information that comes up.  When I was prayed for recently, the woman got two words of knowledge - that God would give me "a new name", and that I would "move mountains" in the next stage of my spiritual journey with the Lord's help.

Thanks for reading - please share any insights you may have regarding this terrible experience, I would appreciate any feedback.

Kind Regards,


Elijah1771.

You can only answer to God, nobody else.

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