(05-08-2024, 03:37 PM)Maxmars Wrote: If I may, it sounds like your are in a good "place."
I think that when we eliminate our tendencies to obsess over our desires, and to conflate 'need' for 'desire', we 'free' ourselves in a very real sense. On occasion I have felt myself approaching this kind of feeling... unfortunately I have been less "able" to secure it in any permanent sense. You have my empathetic joy for your situation, so to speak.
I am called upon to mention that regarding 'what to do' you may be relapsing into a modality of thought that could (might) confound you.
I believe that there is a wisdom among certain native American tribes regarding the living of life. They say "Walk in beauty" is a thing unto itself. You are coming up on that beauty, perhaps even in it... seeking 'a path' is self defeating. Beauty will flow ever before you... you needn't do anything except witness it... that will be enough.
Perhaps it is the drive to "do" that pulls and pushes to and from beauty. Perhaps it's "how" we posture our intentions. Be who you are, embrace that it is so, don't strive to forge it into something else... don't give way to the illusion of a purpose... beauty is a gift... accept it. We, in your world around you, benefit greatly from anyone "walking in beauty."
Peace is the wellspring. Drink deeply. If there are lessons there, they will manifest to you... "reaching" for them isn't really 'required.'
(Sorry if this sounds goofy... I get this way from time to time.)
You gave me goosebumps; that was beauty. I am now speechless at the moment.
(05-08-2024, 04:45 PM)Nerb Wrote: Contentment. Isn't it wonderful.
When the energy we have is ours and we have no immediate obligations or desires. Freewheeling so to speak. Happened to me in the lockdowns sitting in my garden and enjoying just being.
It's like that whole feeling of waiting for something dissappears to enjoy moments of freedom never imagined.
Enjoy yourself and keep that vibration high and energy flowing. I also hope your new hobby or interest finds you when you're ready for it. Or not.
Everything Always Unfolds Perfectly.
"Contentment"
That's the word that kept coming to mind yesterday as I was meditating on this new space.
I. Am. Content.
I appreciate those words of support so much, I'd like to share something personal about it.
I had been wanting to share this thought with a family member. I told them the same as I put it out here, and the response I got was, "I feel sorry for you."
I have been debating on whether or not to drop communication with this family member for a very long time now. And I had been really wanting to share that with them, in the hopes that they would understand, and I wanted them to know I was in a good place. When I got the response it hurt. That old familiar sting. (Long history of toxicity and abuse from this individual, it's a miracle I still speak to them)
After that brief conversation, that I quickly backed out of, I sat down to watch the sunset, and I opened up DI, and read these two beautiful posts that lifted me up back to where I was when I wrote this.
Thank you.
I wouldn't let it get me down too much; I'm used to it, and was expecting it. I've decided not to share such important things with this person anymore. I cast a pearl before the wrong person.
Glad yall appreciated it tho...
