05-08-2024, 03:37 PM
If I may, it sounds like your are in a good "place."
I think that when we eliminate our tendencies to obsess over our desires, and to conflate 'need' for 'desire', we 'free' ourselves in a very real sense. On occasion I have felt myself approaching this kind of feeling... unfortunately I have been less "able" to secure it in any permanent sense. You have my empathetic joy for your situation, so to speak.
I am called upon to mention that regarding 'what to do' you may be relapsing into a modality of thought that could (might) confound you.
I believe that there is a wisdom among certain native American tribes regarding the living of life. They say "Walk in beauty" is a thing unto itself. You are coming up on that beauty, perhaps even in it... seeking 'a path' is self defeating. Beauty will flow ever before you... you needn't do anything except witness it... that will be enough.
Perhaps it is the drive to "do" that pulls and pushes to and from beauty. Perhaps it's "how" we posture our intentions. Be who you are, embrace that it is so, don't strive to forge it into something else... don't give way to the illusion of a purpose... beauty is a gift... accept it. We, in your world around you, benefit greatly from anyone "walking in beauty."
Peace is the wellspring. Drink deeply. If there are lessons there, they will manifest to you... "reaching" for them isn't really 'required.'
(Sorry if this sounds goofy... I get this way from time to time.)
I think that when we eliminate our tendencies to obsess over our desires, and to conflate 'need' for 'desire', we 'free' ourselves in a very real sense. On occasion I have felt myself approaching this kind of feeling... unfortunately I have been less "able" to secure it in any permanent sense. You have my empathetic joy for your situation, so to speak.
I am called upon to mention that regarding 'what to do' you may be relapsing into a modality of thought that could (might) confound you.
I believe that there is a wisdom among certain native American tribes regarding the living of life. They say "Walk in beauty" is a thing unto itself. You are coming up on that beauty, perhaps even in it... seeking 'a path' is self defeating. Beauty will flow ever before you... you needn't do anything except witness it... that will be enough.
Perhaps it is the drive to "do" that pulls and pushes to and from beauty. Perhaps it's "how" we posture our intentions. Be who you are, embrace that it is so, don't strive to forge it into something else... don't give way to the illusion of a purpose... beauty is a gift... accept it. We, in your world around you, benefit greatly from anyone "walking in beauty."
Peace is the wellspring. Drink deeply. If there are lessons there, they will manifest to you... "reaching" for them isn't really 'required.'
(Sorry if this sounds goofy... I get this way from time to time.)
