08-12-2025, 02:57 PM
I need to vent a little as I tend to keep things to myself. After my aneurism operation, I've had a couple of seizures. Those are under control. The seizures never scared me. They are the "tonic clonic" types or "grand mal" whatever you wanna call them, so I wasn't around for them and therefor never happened to me.
However, what really gets me are these "auras" that come prior to a seizure. It starts with a high pitch "tinnitus" squeal from my right ear followed by an electronic zapping sound in my left, kinda like old TUBE tv's with a bad circuit board.
Then it feels like someone is pricking me with a needle so my head jerks to the left side. Then a rushing anxiety feeling comes from my stomach and goes to my chest, then an insurmountable feeling of dread and fear sinks in. It feels like it lasts forever, but in reality probably less than half a minute.
The only relief is when the seizure finally comes. As I calm down, so down and can feel myself drifting off.
But over the past year I've been having "Aura-light's". Basically a toned down but equally scary version of the aura's. But nothing ever happens.
So I go around all day nervous of it happening. It's tiring and sucking the life out of me. I'd like to get the operation to remove the part of the brain that causes the seizures. The seizures are located in the Temperal Lobe so a good candidate.
In Norway, it will take a year to get the operation from you being done with the required testing which itself could take a year to complete. So two years, and I have no plans of staying in Norway that long. Maybe 6-12 months more before being able to move back to the U.S. for good.
I'm just fed up.
However, what really gets me are these "auras" that come prior to a seizure. It starts with a high pitch "tinnitus" squeal from my right ear followed by an electronic zapping sound in my left, kinda like old TUBE tv's with a bad circuit board.
Then it feels like someone is pricking me with a needle so my head jerks to the left side. Then a rushing anxiety feeling comes from my stomach and goes to my chest, then an insurmountable feeling of dread and fear sinks in. It feels like it lasts forever, but in reality probably less than half a minute.
The only relief is when the seizure finally comes. As I calm down, so down and can feel myself drifting off.
But over the past year I've been having "Aura-light's". Basically a toned down but equally scary version of the aura's. But nothing ever happens.
So I go around all day nervous of it happening. It's tiring and sucking the life out of me. I'd like to get the operation to remove the part of the brain that causes the seizures. The seizures are located in the Temperal Lobe so a good candidate.
In Norway, it will take a year to get the operation from you being done with the required testing which itself could take a year to complete. So two years, and I have no plans of staying in Norway that long. Maybe 6-12 months more before being able to move back to the U.S. for good.
I'm just fed up.
And I'm gone.... Like a crack in the past....





