09-22-2024, 01:32 PM
Maxmars your words are so poignant.
Lost my Husband 11yrs ago.
At home as he wished. Don't know that I've done this right but it's what I thought was right. Have been thru much to keep this home, keep our pets, keep what we had here & close.
Have never cried over his loss, probably cause I've made myself busy trying to live up to being the person he knew I could be. It's all I know to do.
His memory always brings a smile to my face since many times life brings moments of "but...we weren't done fighting yet!!" Sparring over idea's was our thing. I'm impetious, he was reasoned. We were well matched. Now it's on me to be both.
Hardest thing I've ever done.
It in hindsight is his greatest gift to me.
As pissed as I am he left me too soon. As furious as I am I didn't know enough medical info to help him more. As angry as I still am his doctors didn't know enough. One of my biggest regrets is he isn't here for the ufo disclosure debacle since he'd of loved it! Truly.
As much as we hate it life goes on an we are forced to find our own footing.
I see it as a challenge he set for me an do my damnedest to make him proud.
Your words are a inspiration to me, not a lament since I don't know how to grieve as you do.
A heartfelt lesson, if you will.
Thank You kindly & sincerely
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Lost my Husband 11yrs ago.
At home as he wished. Don't know that I've done this right but it's what I thought was right. Have been thru much to keep this home, keep our pets, keep what we had here & close.
Have never cried over his loss, probably cause I've made myself busy trying to live up to being the person he knew I could be. It's all I know to do.
His memory always brings a smile to my face since many times life brings moments of "but...we weren't done fighting yet!!" Sparring over idea's was our thing. I'm impetious, he was reasoned. We were well matched. Now it's on me to be both.
Hardest thing I've ever done.
It in hindsight is his greatest gift to me.
As pissed as I am he left me too soon. As furious as I am I didn't know enough medical info to help him more. As angry as I still am his doctors didn't know enough. One of my biggest regrets is he isn't here for the ufo disclosure debacle since he'd of loved it! Truly.
As much as we hate it life goes on an we are forced to find our own footing.
I see it as a challenge he set for me an do my damnedest to make him proud.
Your words are a inspiration to me, not a lament since I don't know how to grieve as you do.
A heartfelt lesson, if you will.
Thank You kindly & sincerely
