I'm exhausted.
Been dealing with destablized sleep patterns, lucid dreaming, astral projection, vivid dreams...hot/cold cycles, waking up early with no honest labor to speak of, living in basic poverty, dealing with mood swings, repressd hostility, past relationships coming back to haunt me, violent outbursts, instabilities, anger, rage, hallucinations from lack of good sleep and meaningful purpose, isolation due to having to relocat due to the influx of interest in the region in which I reside, ghosts, succubi, paranormal bullshyte, jealous individuals who think I'm some sort of "center to the universe", disembodied voices, possession (minor and major), forced complaince, gaslighting, infidelities, rage, wrath...Psychic, Emotional, Sexual Vampires and Role Players out the yang.
Right now I'm listening to an audiobook of the Sci-Fi genre trying to get back on course.
Joy and Awe.
"Gradually I began to intellectually reject some of the delusionally influenced lines of thinking which had been characteristic of my orientation. This began, most recognizably, with the rejection of politically-oriented thinking as essentially a hopeless waste of intellectual effort." ~ John Forbes Nash