12-18-2023, 02:45 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. The death of someone who's been part of your life for so long can be shattering.
And yes, with every death there's always "what if..." questions. I had them when our son died (meningitis.) But you DID try, you checked on things and you monitored and kept close watch on him. You fought it to the end. You didn't quit. That takes strength and compassion (and an exhausting amount of energy.)
One thing that folks don't consider is that a change in treatment might have actually accelerated his death.
Old timers on ATS know you, and we know how hard you work to make sure that you have the best information available whenever you have a question. I believe in you. I believe that you made the right decisions; the best decisions given what resources you had and what access you had.
And yes, with every death there's always "what if..." questions. I had them when our son died (meningitis.) But you DID try, you checked on things and you monitored and kept close watch on him. You fought it to the end. You didn't quit. That takes strength and compassion (and an exhausting amount of energy.)
One thing that folks don't consider is that a change in treatment might have actually accelerated his death.
Old timers on ATS know you, and we know how hard you work to make sure that you have the best information available whenever you have a question. I believe in you. I believe that you made the right decisions; the best decisions given what resources you had and what access you had.
