The Inner Voice/Monologue

[CCoburn]

It all depends how depraved of a shadow self you have.

How often does that inner voice screw up?

Like consider a girl with a controlling abusive piece of trash of a father. He abuses and intimidates her. What's her self-voice gonna say? Anything to lead to an endless cycle of self-sabotage and replicating abuse? Addiction to being a victim?

It starts off like looking through pristine glass at the world, but from the moment you can process stimuli the glass becomes dirtied by everything being thrown on it, altering your view. Including what your elders teach you, warp you with, and what social concepts (like religion or politics) are put in your head.

It's created by your experience/damage and then projects itself into your conscious like it's some bit of imparted wisdom. In reality it just throws shit all over your world window.

I think in theory the little/inner voice often acts as moral compass and 'whispers' accordingly, but it could be somewhat compromised due to past trauma e.g. hinting that you shouldn't when maybe you should and vice versa.

An individual nurtured and continuing on in some optimal pristine environment might harbor an inner voice that is less wary than it would otherwise be and perhaps less wary than it should be in this day and age.

In a way the voice resembles the "ego" in the Freudian model of the psyche. Except that instead of attempting to model/filter your actions according to observance by a judgmental society (superego) will do so instead solely for your own good although lines between "ego" and inner voice may become somewhat grayed or nonexistent at times given the circumstances. The inner voice may guide you against actions that might harm others – conscience.

In my particular case. Sometimes it 'attempts' diversion from certain driving compulsions when I'm on the road, and at times I ignore it because I'd rather have some fun and briefly hang on the edge, or it may tell me that a piece I've just written could use a little reworking/restructuring.

My existence is moderately isolated and non-invasive, so my little voice will likely be optional much of the time, but for others could be the difference between life and death.

On the edit tags:

I see those "edit tags" as an unwanted blemish and will occasionally briefly argue with the little voice as to whether or not one is deserving in correcting some minor triviality i.e. negligible. At times that annoying little voice will nag at me and I end up giving in and fixing it five or ten minutes later – OCD.